I seem to have this intense baby love that I doubt will ever go away. It started about 40 years ago, when all I wanted to be was a mom and a teacher (achieved both, thankfully!). After 5 pregnancies, 2 miscarriages, a stillbirth and raising 2 amazing kiddos - I still have this intense baby desire. A mom at school brought her son with her today, he's 13 months old, and I could literally feel this pang in my heart of wanting another baby. Sometimes it actually hurts.
Realism tells me I won't, but it doesn't take away the feeling. I remember how happy I was when I was pregnant with Colm, and was going to get that one more baby. Perhaps that is why the intense baby drive is still so prevalent - I'm missing out on the baby love that I should have had with him nearly 7 years ago. All those baby smells, coos, smiles, giggles will have to wait for me in Heaven.
